Showing posts with label carberry finale. Show all posts
Showing posts with label carberry finale. Show all posts
Never Say Goodbye...Carberry Finale/celebration weekend
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
"Leaving new york, never easy" sang R.E.M.
Leaving Carberry was not easy. I wanted to leave well but I am not sure I have achieved it.
I wanted to say goodbye
I wanted to leave well
I wanted to be right.
In the end I just left. quietly. without goodbyes. without waving.
I walked up the dinner hall smiled, walked back down and out the door.
I looked back. at the scene I wanted to remember.
the dinner hall being busy, noisy, people queuing, eating, laughing, talking.
not about me.
My arrival at carberry was quiet and late.
On a July Friday evening in 1998 my brother said Eddie Williamson was doing a 2 week festival. I could possibly go and do sound stuff. I called he said yes. I couldn't make it until the sunday morning. Not a problem I said, be there at 9.30 he said.
So i headed for a place near edinburgh called carberry.
I hadn't looked at a map, i only knew it was near edinburgh.
I drove to edinburgh and stopped at several petrol stations onn the bypass. going in and looking at the road maps checking where i was going.
Eventually I got there.
11am, tea break. I was sent to get the tea and cakes for being late.
I only knew one person who greeted me.
I left quiet and early
Only Chris knew I was going
I thought I had made my peace with things ending.
sadness was around me.
i left.
the ipod played.
I thought about everything I should have said and everything i should have done.
All i wanted to do all i wanted.
I thought.
Leaving was hard.
saying goodbye. never
see you soon.
Hopeful and good. i like hopeful and good.
thank you sarah, thank you amy, thank you andrew, for contact since. it means alot.
If you wish, reach out, touch virtual fingers.
speak to you later?
Leaving Carberry was not easy. I wanted to leave well but I am not sure I have achieved it.
I wanted to say goodbye
I wanted to leave well
I wanted to be right.
In the end I just left. quietly. without goodbyes. without waving.
I walked up the dinner hall smiled, walked back down and out the door.
I looked back. at the scene I wanted to remember.
the dinner hall being busy, noisy, people queuing, eating, laughing, talking.
not about me.
My arrival at carberry was quiet and late.
On a July Friday evening in 1998 my brother said Eddie Williamson was doing a 2 week festival. I could possibly go and do sound stuff. I called he said yes. I couldn't make it until the sunday morning. Not a problem I said, be there at 9.30 he said.
So i headed for a place near edinburgh called carberry.
I hadn't looked at a map, i only knew it was near edinburgh.
I drove to edinburgh and stopped at several petrol stations onn the bypass. going in and looking at the road maps checking where i was going.
Eventually I got there.
11am, tea break. I was sent to get the tea and cakes for being late.
I only knew one person who greeted me.
I left quiet and early
Only Chris knew I was going
I thought I had made my peace with things ending.
sadness was around me.
i left.
the ipod played.
I thought about everything I should have said and everything i should have done.
All i wanted to do all i wanted.
I thought.
Leaving was hard.
saying goodbye. never
see you soon.
Hopeful and good. i like hopeful and good.
thank you sarah, thank you amy, thank you andrew, for contact since. it means alot.
If you wish, reach out, touch virtual fingers.
speak to you later?
exit -shuffle stage right.... Carberry Finale/celebration weekend
Monday, June 23, 2008
the shuffle function on the Ipod may be the subject of rumours and questioning, but sometimes it gets the results so right.
we drove away quietly.
as we sat in the car i plugged in my non-generic mp3 player selected music, songs and pressed shuffle.
When I was born,
my daddy said i was broken
the beginning of the end of a life i hadn't chosen.
he taught me how to give up, taught me how to work the system
but i never had the time.
i never had the luxury.
life's hard i've always known that,
I've never been handed no welcome mat
When i die, please don't cry,
cause heaven's my home anyhow.
shining my shoes
seems like time for wasting
cause this bright sun
is the only shine i need
they say you only live once
and lot you gets for keeping
but glory's gonna come
and make a new man out of me.
life's hard i've always known that,
I've never been handed no welcome mat
When i die, please don't cry,
cause heaven's my home anyhow.
When I was born,
my face was like the angels
i took my father by the hand,
and said life won't be hard now.
life's hard i've always known that,
I've never been handed no welcome mat
When i die, please don't cry,
cause heaven's my home anyhow.
Heavens my home anyhow
Heavens my home anyhow
Heavens my home anyhow
life's hard i've always known that,
I've never been handed no welcome mat
When i die, please don't cry,
cause heaven's my home anyhow.
Heavens my home by The Duhks from the album Migrations
followed by
I wanna know if it would be alright
To be with you tonight
I am undone
Wait, don't go
Don't let my heart turn to stone
Fear, it has no home
When you are near
Cause I need you now
More than then
I need you to let your rain
Down on me
Let it fall
All around me
Wait, don't hide
Please shelter me in your side
From there my strength is derived
I am done
So, is that the way the story goes?
In your arms, I know
It's alright
I can hear the sound
Of rain coming down
Undone by the Violet Burning from the album I am a stranger in this place
It just seemed to make a bunch of sense!
one song about the desire of someone who will be leaving soon to be remembered happily. one song about being undone and how safety strength and rain comes from God not a place or an event.
sometimes the shuffle gets it so right...
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